Hi Everyone,

So I was talking to Mrs. Lloyd and apparently no one knows still that I am getting married. BY the way it's next week... so yeah crazy.

Also everyone keeps asking for details since it's a big shock.

So here are the details.

Ryan and I dated in High School , 10th grade. It was short lived, but i always had feelings for him and cared about him and him about me.
Then he moved to another school and we didn't see each other.
So for 9 years we talked all through my sister who worked with Ryan at UDF.
He would ask for details about my life and me about him.

Then in January I found him myself on Myspace after basically stalking him for a year. So we talked everyday basically while i worked at Zimcom.

Then June 30 we had our first date , i guess you would say.
Then we got engaged early July.

Then we have been engaged 8 weeks and getting married at a small ceremony outside next weekend on Friday Sept. 7th.

It's going to be small wedding big reception.

I love Ryan even though it's been hard and I have learned alot about how selfish I have been before.

Also, I've just learned alot regarding compromise and sacrifice and love and friendship and caring about someone else besides yourself.

SO there are the details... love you all

Soon to be Vanessa O'Neill - last week as Vanessa Martin

I finally had some time to sit on here and write and realized it's been forever since I've posted anything. So I thought i might as well give a quick update into my life now.

I've been back in Cincy for almost a year now... i feel like my life has gone from one extreme to another. I've had boyfriends and not. I've been good then bad. I've had no job, 2 jobs, and settled in with one. I wanted to move back to Sidney and now I'm settled in Cincy and don't want to move again for a long time.

Work is good... it's my first tax season... and hopefully I will get used to that craziness. I still miss being a youth pastor... and i miss the kids something awful. This job is so different. Most days I feel like I have to deny myself to be there. The work isn't hard, but it's so not my personality. But i need to work with being in a new house and all.

Which leads me to I moved!! I moved into a new house helping take care of my mother and her roommate. It looks like they will be moving out next year - which wasn't the plan but i'm trying to live with it. The house is nice, beautiful really. I have a huge room and a gigantic closet. A girl's dream come true.

I dont' really have a life outside of work - I don't socialize here the way I used to... and so many of my old friends no longer are friends with me.

I started  a new relationship - something that I feel is good and is helping me to not go crazy.

I'm spending a lot of time trying to take care of myself - be real with myself - and figure out what I'm doing and where I'm going. It's hard work but I know it will be great in the end.

My family is ok - my mom is going thru alot right now and I'm really having to help her.. it's been rough. But other than that.. my sister and her husband are good... trying to have a baby.

It's crazy really i look back on this last year and most days realize that I'm not doing too bad. After losing 11 people in one year, one being my dad's death by suicide. Leaving a job, house, friends, ministry, church family. Moving 3 times. Having many ups and downs.

I'm not crazy yet - so there's hope - I think!

Here's to the end of tax season - and nights of sleeping more than 4 hours.

Vanessa